My Bi-Polar Story

Imagine not being able to trust your own feelings. Not knowing whether that rush of joy was caused by a pretty girl’s smile or a random rush of chemicals. Not knowing how long that feeling would last, or even whether or not you will be punished for this great feeling...

Bad Days

I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder only about four years ago now and it has been a difficult road.  Though I have come to a place of stability and seek constantly to grow, there are times when I am going to experience bad days.  No matter what steps we take to...

Warning Lights Part 2

Now that we have an established foundation regarding emotions in general,  we may understand that emotions are signals to underlying issues–much like the warning lights on the dashboard of a vehicle.  The warning light itself is not the problem.  I often joke...

External noise vs. Internal ideas

Every day we are bombarded with noise. We are told which products to buy in order to address fears and insecurities often created by the same advertisement. We are constantly told who we are and who we should be. This is not always malicious, as a vital part of our...

Letting Pain Speak

We as a society hate pain.  We do everything we can to numb it as soon as it comes up.  In many ways we are products of hedonistic and enlightenment philosophy which says that pain is bad, and all of our decisions should be framed by causing the least pain and...

Warning Lights Part 1

This past weekend was crazy and stressful.  I experienced the death of my grandmother, and had been asked to perform the funeral.  It was a tremendous honor to be able to do this for my family and in my times of preparation, I realized that we as a culture do not have...